trying times...

Believe me, I am trying so hard.
I want to not care for you.
I want to not love you.
I want to be not in love with you.
You can't say that I'm not trying hard enough.
This is something you cannot take away from me.
I love you still.
I love you so much.
I care for you
I want to be happy for you.
But something tells me that's there is something bothering you.
I wanna know what that is.
Maybe, just maybe I can help.
When I know that you are completely, truly happy,then I will have peace of mind.
But until then.
Open up.
Express it.
I can take it.