Day 2

No post for day 1?
I was out the whole day yesterday so no day 1.

Just to fill you in on what's happening

I'm currently re assessing my life (family, relationships).

I have until May 2 to fix myself up.

I am hoping everything will be back to normal.

Or better than they were the last time.

You will never know what you have until you lose it.

I hope I haven't lost it. Yet.

Kinda thinking that this is only a vacation.

I hope it's not a permanent vacation for her.

I'm going through a hard time.

I deserve this, so I have to go through this.

I hope this will make me better.

This better make me better.

Gotta tell you this is hard.

Always looking for something to make me busy.

I find stuff that make me busy.

But doesn't make me busy enough.

My life is in the crapper right now.

Questions keep popping up. So I ask myself...

Why didn't you notice that?

Why are you so stupid?

Why did you let it slip away?

Can you still have her back?

I can. I must. I will.

Change for the better.

Lessons must be learned. Some of it the hard way.

10 days to go.

Natutulog Ba ang Diyos

Bakit kaya
Bakit ka ba naghihintay
Na himukin pa
Pilitin ka ng tadhana
Alam mo na
Kung bakit nagkakaganyan
Lumulutang nasasayang
Ang buhay mo
At ang ibinubulong ng
'yong puso
Natutulog ba ang Diyos
Natutulog ba

Ba't ikaw ay kaagad
sumusuko
Konting hirap at munting
pagsubok lamang
Bakit ganyan
Nasaan ang iyong tapang
Naduduwag nawawalan
Ng pag-asa
At iniisip na natutulog
pa
Natutulog ba ang Diyos
Natutulog ba

Sikapin mo pilitin mong
Tibayan ang iyong puso
Tanging ikaw ang huhubog
Sa 'yong bukas
'Wag mo sanang akalaing
Natutulog pa ang Diyos
Ang buhay mo
Ay mayroong halaga
Sa Kanya

Dapat pa ba
Na ikaw ay maghintay
At himukin pa pilitin ka
Ng tadhana
Gawin mo na
Kung ano ang nararapat
Magsikap ka at magtiwala
sa Maykapal
Nakahanda ang Diyos
Umalalay sa 'yo
Hinihintay ka lang
Kaibigan

Sikapin mo pilitin mong
Tibayan ang iyong puso
Tanging ikaw ang huhubog
Sa 'yong bukas
'Wag mo sanang akalaing
Natutulog pa ang Diyos
Ang buhay mo
Ay mayroong halaga
Sa Kanya